Sunday, February 08, 2009
{ 7:12 AM }
yesterday marked the end of orientation. finally. finally after 6 days of waking up early and taking taxi to school, life is back to normal. but..not quite the normal though. there are many changes. changes that i dont know because it is going to happen i guess. the school is much more lively with the j1s and it just felt weird with us being the seniors of the school. looking at the orientation video, it felt as though i just came into mj yesterday.
orientation made me realise a lot of things. i learnt that i shouldnt take things for granted and that i should treasure everything around me because the relationship between people is so vulnerable it could just break anytime. all the while i thought i wanted to hate, but now, i found out that maybe i was wrong to hate. i should love instead because i all these while i have had the wrong thinkings. i thought it didnt matter but deep inside i should have known i was lying to myself. i should have known all i wanted was to be part of it. i should have understood how much all these meant to me. right now, slowly i feel as though i am being accepted. i felt a sense of belonging. thanks to all of you.
i was so scared when everything just happened so fast i almost thought it was just another nightmare. indeed it was a nightmare. but it's a nightmare that happened for real.